Photos of the Week
Photos from our apple and peach picking outing....
I love harvesting in the fall.... even if it's stuff that I didn't grow myself :)
So......I have a lot on my mind today. I hope it won't bore you if I unload my thoughts here.
I'm currently a mother of one amazing almost five year old. I love him and am grateful for him everyday of my life. I've always wanted a big family- like the one I was raised in. But so far the additional children have not come. We've been waiting for over three years to have more children. But I've had to wade through lots of physical trials and for most of that time, it was an impossibility to even think about having more. Now I'm at the point where I feel healthier than I have in a long long time. I'm ready and able to care for more kids, but it hasn't happened yet.
I know for some, three years to wait for having a child seems like a short time. Others wait much much longer. But I don't know if it makes it any easier for me, especially here, where I'm surrounded by a culture that values large families -where you feel left behind because you only have one kid, while others your age have 2,3, or 4.
Most of the time I'm grateful for the life and family I have, but once in a while I get down on myself because I don't have more children yet. I wonder why I've had to wait so so long when I love children so much. At times I even doubt my own worth. But over the weekend I heard some inspired words from a very inspired man that helped to heal my wounds.
"Your Heavenly Father loves you, each of you. That love never changes. It is not influenced by your appearance, by your possessions, or by the amount of money in your bank account. It is not changed by your talents and abilities. It is simply there."
-President Thomas S. Monson
As soon as I heard those words, I knew they were true. I feel so strongly about that simple message. The Lord loves you no matter what stage you are in life or what you may or may not have. He loves me and will always love me no matter how many children I have. I should never compare myself to others or base my own worth on how I measure up to others.