It's been another big week of change. Which can be scary, but also good.
I turned 31, had fun celebrating with my family, and made some major health decisions. After visiting my doc and finding out that I may have Adenomyosis in addition to Endometriosis, I'm pretty sure that hystorectomy is my best option. I need to be healthy. I need to be able to do normal things-like sign my kid up for soccer. I have never been able to make that kind of commitment with my health problems. They have ruled my life. It's time to change that.
I never imagined having a hystorectomy at such a young age. I never imagined that I would have just one shot at bearing a child of my own. That I would only experience one pregnancy and one birth. I will cherish that experience forever. Morning sickness and all! While I can't begin to describe the heartache that comes with the loss of fertility, I am certain that this is the way it is supposed to be.
Elise - sending up prayers that this decision will bring you peace as you prepare for the healing that is to come.
ReplyDeleteJulie
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers Julie :)
DeleteOh Elise, sending you hugs!! Suzy x
ReplyDeleteThanks Suzy! hugs are good :)
DeletePraying for you. <3
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Such a difficult decision. Sending hugs your way.
ReplyDeleteThanks Allison!
DeleteThere is strength in your decision. May Spring's blessings be with you.
ReplyDeletePeace,
Laurie
Oh hun I so sorry *hugs* to you xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteDifficult, yes, but not the end of motherhood, if you don't want it. My aunt had an early hys with only one child-- a girl. After several years she adopted a boy. She is nearing her eighties now, and the boy is a man who has become an adoptive parent, himself, after one biological child. Great legacy!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing that story with me! Yes, that is a great legacy. I don't know what we'll do in the future- we're taking it one step at a time for now, but it's something I've thought about for sure :)
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